Transgender actress Karla Sofía Gascón reflected on her own mental health struggles after controversial tweets resurfaced during the peak of awards season.

Emilia Pérez star Karla Sofía Gascón—who made history as the first openly trans woman to be nominated for an Oscar for Best Actress—said she “contemplated the unthinkable” after a rocky awards season in which previous controversial posts she had made on social media came to light.

In a recent statement, the star of Emilia Perez vows to “commit to continuing to learn and listen, so as not to make the same mistakes in the future” following the re-emergence of her previous racist tweets after receiving Oscar nominations,